Monday, August 16, 2010

The Hardest Truth

I think the hardest thing to do when you are a teenager is keeping up with your promises. To others, to yourself, it's hard. So I would like to apologize to my maybe to readers (you know who you are) for not blogging. You probably don't care but it's cool. So! On with blogging! Onward soldiers!!

On the inside, I hurt.
But on the outside, I wear my mast well.
Soft smiles and Bright eyes.
They wear me out until I am nothing.
Deep down, in the core of my body, all I want is sleep.
Nothing more then to sleep away the day.
But everyday I wake up,
I put on my mask and I laugh and smile.
But if you look hard enough,
You can still see the sleep in my heart.
If you can see it, wake me up.

I hate it when people look too much into things. They strip it of all meaning by trying to figure out it's meaning. Honestly, maybe the writer didn't mean anything when they wrote it. The words came to them but they don't pertain to the writer at all. When I wrote that poem, (it's not very good but then again I'm not a writer.) I wasn't thinking of me at all. I had just woken up and was a little sleepy and there you go, SLEEP became the theme of my poem. Whoop-di-doo. BIG DEAL to some. I'm not depressed. Everyone writes all kinds of things. I may write Happy poems, love poems, depressing poems, all that jazz! But I'm not happy, in love, depressed or whatever. I mean I am happy but it doesn't have to be in my poems. Please don't aways read into things. I mean sometimes you have to, but really?! I think there are some things to can leave well enough alone. It's silly. Blegh. Done with that now... Ha!

Total Eclipse of the Heart is the best song ever. Hahahaha!

I'm pretty much in love with that song. It's hilariously 80's (I think it's 80's)

So enjoy your day you guys! I;m seeing Despicable Me tonight. Sick nast!!! Okay so peace!!

Monday, May 17, 2010

I'm leaving you for forever.

HA JUST KIDDING! Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I'm a "noob." But yeah there is only one thing that I want to say. Sorry.

I'M ON YOUTUBE! CHECK ME OUT. My user name is allyomallyable. Yeah that's awesome. Say it out loud. It's funny. Ha! Yeah so love it. That's the link to my youtube. Check it out. I'll sing, I'll dance, I'll look stupid. All of that good stuff. Please keep in mind that this is my first video so it sucks. Yeah... Love it!!Mmmmkay I'm leave for today. Shmanks. Bye!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Yo, Dude I'm Digging That Dress.

Ha HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA! That is my response to Watchmen. I saw it for the first time today, or at least I saw most of it, I have to see the last forty minutes some other time. But yeah, I read the book, and this movie does not do the book justice. It's actually kind of really funny, and it's not supposed to be funny! It's supposed to be disturbing and amazing... It was neither. Well it was a little disturbing, but not in the good way the book was. Oh and yeah, I'm THAT awesome. I read the graphic novel. Praise me if you must, because I am just THAT cool. I don't have to try hard. HA! Just kidding peepo-diddles.

Mmmmmh Curse my bad luck. The Ab Guy (E.A.- Not the Wellesley one, the picture one). Yeah bad luck. Bad Bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad.


Oh shoot this has taken e three hours to write. I'll write another one later. Sorry for nothing pretty to look at! Bye!

Monday, May 10, 2010

The Jesus Rug

HEY! So prom was on Saturday. Pretty fun. I got to ride in a limo for the first time. Classy, I know. Ha it was great except for the fact that the limo driver wasn't the best driver and almost killed three pedestrians. No biggie.

Speaking of bad drivers, my dad saw a woman get hit by a car today. It was on route nine. I bet that was terrifying! Here's how the conversation went down.
Papa: I saw a woman get hit by a car today
Sister: What?! Where?!
Papa: Route nine.
Sister: Oh my goodness is she okay?!
Papa: Well she was screaming so that's a good sign.
I know that sounds crazy but my dad is a doctor and he has a point. If she were not screaming, say she was passed out, then there would be a major problem. And if there were no problem, he would have seen her get up and be okay. Screaming is a sign that you are hurt but not to the point that you are not conscious. Just saying...

So ANYWAY, prom. Here is my favorite picture of me that they put up. Enjoy.

I know I look silly, but there is something TEN times better in a picture when people are laughing and smiling then when they are posing and serious. I'm being silly and me which is the prettiest I can get. Ha if you think I look stupid... Well that's your opinion. Ha!

ANYWAY, here is a song for you. I like it a lot.

Ahhhh Charlie... You are wonderful. Ha I have quite a problem. Yeah me and E.A. started that trend. No one would know him at my school if it weren't for us. GO EPA! (shout out? I think so)

Mmmkay I'm gonna go..... Bye!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


AHhhhh my whole school is buzzing about prom! It's hilarious! I like it... Ha I wish that I was buzzzzing about it! Oh wait! Ha I'm going! I forgot... Alright I'm done now!

Why is it that I always start to talk to Flogging Molly? Ugh he is so very attractive! Like seriously. Stupid people... They be very mean. Cock Block. No. Ewww. Gross.

I HAVE A NEW KITTEN! I now have two kitties. Katya/Katja. Yeah love it! Haahhaha!!!

Goodness me this post has no substance at all!!! Nothing interesting...!

Oh right, I forgot. I got V.P. of Costumes. Ha I get to dress everyone! It was really fun. We showed up and then people nominated us. Then, we gave speeches. It wasn't much of a competition though because no one ran against me. So yeah it was pretty much me going up and saying.
"Hi I'm Alessandra.
I like clothes.
I'm excited to clothe you.
Please vote for me since you have SO many people to choose from.
Thanks for not running against me.
Thank you"

Ha how amazing is that speech?! I'm pretty sure that If I had done it during speech class I would have gotten 100%. Especially with the weird hand thing! (In case you weren't there I was doing something weird with my arms.) Yeah but who cares! If someone had run against me, S.S. would have beat them up. What a good friend!


Yeah I enjoy these! I hope you do to! Hey so Prom pictures, they'll be posted soon!!! But for now, goodbye! PEACE!


This post is entirely for things I hate. Sorry. I had to do it. I'm MAD!

I HATE those things that I hate.

Done now. Peace!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Let Me Eat Your Banana!

AHhhhh This band business is exciting but now I'm all worried. Every band, when it's starting off, sucks. Everyone knows that and everyone comes to terms with that. But what if we never get over that sucky period? What if we stay terrible for forever?! That would be terrible! I might just... Sit in a corner and cry. Oh how sad. Now I'm all worried. Gah! I'm gonna freak out soon. Be glad that your not here to see that. Because I will be freaking out silently and no one likes that! To keep it inside and never let it out until you DIE! Ahhh I don't want to DIE! Bad bad bad! Oh well. I'll get over it. If we suck, we suck, you know? Yeah.

OK so yeah... That's all I really have to say. No prettiness. It's time for Chocolate. Peace!!!

Dang this is short... HA!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Misguided Ghosts

Yay! Guess who is started a band?! I am! I have finally just decided to do it! And do you know what my reasons are for finally taking initiative? They are actually quite silly... So I have this best friend, R.C. I have known her since fourth grade. So anyway, I have noticed that she has her own band (which we had always planned on doing but I ended up moving...) And It made me think... She can have a band? The girl who was so super shy, I was always the brave one? But I'm too scared just to ask one if they wanted to start a band? Well no. That's not gonna happen! So I am starting a band. We have no name, there is only me and one other person in the band... If you know a drummer or some one who plays and instrument that would be much appreciated. I can only sing so I'm kind of helpless. Ha I'm going to get on that whole learning how to play something thing. Yeah...

It's funny how you can really hate a band and then, all of the sudden, hear one song and really really really like them... Yes... I like Paramore now. Ha I'm such a loser. Call them a guilty pleasure or whatever, but I hated them before and I am now buying their new (not old, I hate the old one) album on itunes... Yes... I am the coolest. Which it just so happens that my bands first song is from their new album (Yeah we are covering it...) I'm not telling you what it is yet BECAUSE we are gonna make a video and I will then post it. Ha get excited! But of course this means I have to learn the song first so it may be a little while... Just a little. Ha in the mean time, here is a song of theirs that I really like! It's NOT the one we're doing.

I really want her hair color... Would it look stupid if I did that? I mean it's the same hair cut so hey, why not the color. It's not that I want to be her or anything... I just think her hair is AWESOME!
Photo shoots are fun. Let's have one! A nice lovely photo shoot where you take pictures. A weird concept, I know, but I think we can get the hang of it!

Hahahahaha this is GloZell. Ha she is hilarious! Check her out on youtube!

Mmmkay I have to go you guys! So over in out! Have a good day! PEACE!

Friday, April 30, 2010

Animal Intensity.

Ha what does that even mean?!

Yeah so I love love love love love love love love listening to music that makes you so good inside. I must say, I just had a wonderful dance party by myself. It was great!!! I had loads of fun! So come on! Get on a great song and have a dance party too! It's the only way to get by. They really are fun. Scream the words and jump around! Shake your head, shake your butt, jam out! Have you ever been to a concert and just watched the band jamming out completely. They look so happy! Be that band!!! Be that HAPPY!

Hahaha so if you haven't noticed I am in an incredible mood! I am feeling rather lovely! I don't even know why. Nothing really amazing has happened today. I went to school and then went home. I have been sitting on the computer since. And yet...? I am jumping for joy! I can't get over this great feeling! If you have been reading my blog, you will see a blog from a long long time ago about me having this strange feeling that something amazing was going to happen to me. Well I have that feeling again! I don't know why!! Ahhh

Yeah so I just got on MLIA and spent a while reading. I started this blog at 3:49 and it is not 6:18. I have a problem! Ha Okay I'm gonna go. It's party time!!! So have a good day! Here Is Landon Pigg. I love his CD so much! It makes me happy....

Thursday, April 29, 2010


OH goodness there is so much to do with so little time!

Yeah I don't know where that came from... I just felt like saying it. It was really fun too. Ha so anyway, I'M GOING TO PROM!!! Yay! Ha and I'm going with... A girl. Ha. Not that I like girls. I'm going with a friend. It will be super duper lovely! I can't wait! We are taking the T into Boston and woot woot. Yeah... That made no sense at all! Ha well hat's what I get for doing this late at night when I'm sleepy but can't sleep. Oh well! It will be a total success. I know you love my blog! Yeah yeah I'm gonna change topic now onto... VOCABULARY!!!

Ahhhh I love the way some people talk. I especially love "ghetto speak" as some people call it. There are just some things that are so funny!!
And many others that I of course can't think of. Yeah I keep on thinking of some amazing words for these lists and then forget them when I finally write them down. Dang it. That's the problem with my fail brain. It fails. Oh well! I like the fact that I don't say stupid things, for example: "I was amazed and like super surprised at how little rights people in sweatshops have!!!" Yeah no shit, S.G. Ha I'm sorry I had to say that. There are just some people that say the most stupid things! Seriously, where do they come up with these things? Hahaha It makes me laugh....

I'm going to marry this boy. Just saying.
*I decided not to actually put his picture up like I planned because yeah... I'm not a creeper. I don't randomly put up pictures.*
Ha me and this kid have been planning to marry since third grade. Seriously. You know when you are really little and you have one of those guy/girl friends that you are so totally close with and you always plan to marry (keep in mind that you are little!) No? Just me? Well if you do know what I'm talking about just nod your head. I bet you secretly nodded your head bu you just don't want to admit it. But ANYWAY, yes, we will be marrying eventually. So get ready for that.

Check this guy out!

Love Is A Story. Not amazing live, but he is one of my favorite bands. I love this song the most. It makes me infinitely happy even though it's not a happy.

Mmmmkay. So you have something to look at and lots to read. And now I am going to attempt to go to sleep even though I can't. Joy! Have a good weekend you guys (Ha I crack myself up with the plural. Have a good week Erica) I'll post again... Probably tomorrow! NIGHT!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

It's just my luck that I finally get everything in order, I finally have a computer again and I'm ready to blog again and what happens? My internet breaks. I spent all of my spring break without internet... Which kind of wasn't that bad at all... Actually... I liked it a lot! But I am a teenage girl so that is blasphemy! Ahhhh I might just get smited right now.

Guess what?! I have become obsessed with a certain youtuber recently and it just tells me... I want to start youtubing. Why not? It sounds like fun, and it would just be me being super duper silly. I lie the idea. It think... Just maybe... That I will do it. I'll inform you nonexistent readers (except you Erica, ha you are always there. I LOVE YOU!) all about it if I decide to!

Yeah so since I'm on the subject of youtube, here is another video for your viewing pleasure!

Mmmmmm Jared Leto... What a sexy beast! The 30 Seconds to Mars concert was sick! It was absolutely amazing. I loved it! Ummmm yes it was great. That's all I will say... Ha!

Whatever happened to Aly and AJ. They were huge for a little while! All over the Disney radar then suddenly... They went away. Weird! They just freaking disappeared. Ahhhh mind blowing!!

Here is a list of words we should use in our vocabulary regularly!
Jeezy Creezy
Buh (Ha Charlie)

Yeah I have more but I have given up. Maybe I'll add more later...? Yeah... Sure. HA!

I just watched almost every charlieissocoollike video withmy sister... We are AWESOME! Yeah I'm gonna finish them off now...

Mmmmkay (Ha reference!) I'm gonna go now! I'll post again tomorrow (hopefully~!)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I died.... And now I'm back

Hello everyone.... I died.... Sorry about that. But I'm back now, living and breathing and such. Well for the most part. I was sick so yeah, the breathing part was a little hard... Ha I couldn't sing without coughing every so often... It made things difficult when I was singing in the choir concert. NOT IMPORTANT though. Ha so anyway, I don't know what to tell you. I could fill you in on all of the things I've done recently but that would make then longest post in the history of man! So I will not do that. But I will.... Ugh yeah I have nothing else to say. Should I ramble? Nawwww. I'll say a few things and then skivvie.


Yes so E.A. and I recently found a rather cool dude... Ummm actually the most amazing dude. Charlie is his name and is his name and I rather like him. Here is one of his videos... :]]

Ummmm yeah I love him... charlieissocoollike.

Ahhh who wouldn't like him? He is so cool like!!! Enjoy my friends!

Uhhh.... I am seeing 30 Seconds to Mars on Tuesday. I'm super excited!!!! Jared Leto.... So beautiful!!!!

Yeah I have nothing else to say... Ha!!! So yeah I guess I'll write a better post later. Peace out Scouts!!!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


AHHHH THIS IS THE FIFTIETH POST I HAVE WRITTEN!!! Are you proud of me? I have actually kept up with this for that long?! Dang! Ha well Isn't this just exciting? Ahhh! How exciting.

Man, I am beat! It's really quite sad! I am so very tired! Why why why why why? Oh yeah, because I have no life other then theater anymore. I forgot for a second. Pooey. I mean, I love theater, but it takes up so much of my time! And effects my grades too.... Blegh. How EXHAUSTING!

Alrighty then, I met a cute boy today. Lets call him... Flogging Molly. That's his name now. Yes, Flogging Molly is quite attractive. Good personality too. But I am always meeting boys. Ha! He says we will be dancing at the dance though. Yay. Ha! Should be fun. He seems nice. A good new friend? Maybe! Hopefully better then Camel. Abandon er. Bahahahah! Just kidding. Hmmmm.... SEMI IS GONNA BE SWEET! So many cool people going! Maybe another person? Maybe....

I found a dress for the semi formal. It's one Saturday. I think I have already said this. Well I'm excited for the award ceremony then a quick change and off to the dance! Ha at least this dance has benefits. If we don't move on, it will cheer me up, if we do then I'll be able to celebrate! I'm excited. YAY for bright pink dresses! I'm gonna look like a Barbie, I swear. Ha!

So They decided on themes for the schools that we are hosting. It's cereal! My group got Frosted Flakes. Ttttthhhhheeeerrrrrreeeeeeeee GREAT! Ha It will be wonderful! Or I hope it will be! We are getting decorations tomorrow I think. Wish us luck! We usually have a small budget so hopefully this will go well! Ahhhh I'm excited! This will be sick!

So I bought the Alice in Wonderland soundtrack, Almost Alice. It wasn't as amazing as I had hoped it would be. Meh, how not exciting. Oh well, there are some sick songs on the C.D. I'm embarrassed to say that I like the Avril Levine song the best... Little funfact, did you know that Avril means April in French? Cool right? Anyway, I suggest people see the movie though. I liked it. It wasn't epic, but it was pretty sweet!

Ahhh I have nothing else to report.... Other then I'm going to bed at eight tonight. Excited? Yes. So goodnight all! Have a good one!


Monday, March 8, 2010

Goosey Goose

Okay, Camel is gone! It's all good though! I just have to believe in myself and it will disappear! Please believe in me too! It's for the best! Bye bye Camel.

Hmmmm No prom everyone, by the way. I got uninvited. I don't know if I told you about the prom. Got invited, now I'm not. Ooooh well!

I AM THE BEAST OF ALL BEASTS! I FINISHED A LAB REPORT IN AN HOUR!! Suck it. HA! I love getting stuff done. Granted it was a terrible report, but who cares? I don't. Ahhh I am so tired man!!!

Okay so Semi finals are on Saturday, the same day as the Semi formal. Ha what are the odds? They be slim mister! But it will be great. The first one was wonderful! I met a lot of wonderful people. But festival is very stressful. And my grades go way down during the week of! It doesn't help that tomorrow I have TWO tests and play practice. Ugh this is getting to be way to much work. I really dislike it at the moment. Not very fun. But it will get fun I bet. I have come to find that around Semi's time, nothing is fun, everyone is just so dead set on getting to the finals. Then at the finals they get all chill again. I wish every stage were like the Pre-lims. Everything is just so chill and nice. I enjoy it a lot.

So here is my goal for Semis. I will be outgoing and lovely. I don't want to go to find a guy, that's stupid. It's a perk but not a good reason to go. I want to have fun and I want to see all of the wonderful plays that go on. I want to be happy. Oh be happy PLEASE!

Does anyone want to talk? I would rather enjoy that. If you know me, you can contact me.I just need to talk. Or listen. I need to get my head strait is what I need... So yes, There isn't much else to say. I'll tell you all about the school I'm hosting for Semi's on Thursday. That's when I meet them. Hopefully they are super chill! Okay, well goodbye for now my loves!

This song makes me insanely happy. All Over Town- The Kooks.
It's a sad but sweet tune...

Friday, March 5, 2010


Ha. Ha. Ha. Who doesn't like Freakles?

I got sick yesterday. This morning when I woke up and told my dad I felt terrible, he replied, "Don't go to school then." So I didn't. Who has replaced my Daddy? My sister later told me he probably let me stay because I was older. Anyway, I spent the night sleeping a reading. Good day. Though a little boring I must say... Ooooh well! I liked relaxing. But yeah, right now I'm watching Benjamin Button and reading MLIA's. Man MLIA is so much better then FML. It's way less depressing. I love them so much... Oooh people with average lives are the best!

Hmmmm Camel... Enough said.

Ahhhh I have nothing to report because I did NOTHING today. Well I did read a book. Here it is. Read it....

Bass Ackwards and Belly Up.

Yeah, well I guess I'll go away for now.... Meh. Bye!

Ahhh Before I go, I missed a call and now I'm angry. HA! Stupid phone didn't ring...

Tata for now!

LIGHTS- Saviour

Thursday, March 4, 2010


Oooh I am mad... Really really mad. Angry at myself really. But what can I do about it? I'm a dumb girl. Dumb dumb dumb dumb! Why? Camel? Yes. Shiz. This sucks man!

Hmmm I had a forty minute heart to heart with B.C? Weird! I mean it was great to get things off my chest. There have been some things that I just need to talk about but... I can't always. I don't know why I told him... It just came out I guess... SO I told a random kid things that I don't usually tell them... And he cried? Weird. I wasn't expecting it! Well we know more about each other I guess.

So I'm regretting deleting that post from a couple of days ago. It was a great post. But It's gone now, not coming back. I shouldn't have done it. Ooooh well.

I am sick. This sucks man! I hate being sick! It's rather terrible. I dislike it... Just wanted to reiterate that point. I don't like being sick. Not at all. Yuck. Gross. Ewww. MEh. Blegh. Gah.

I got a solo in chorus. Everyone should come see me fail completely! It will be a smash! It will be a ball. It will be a hit! Gosh I dislike my life right now. Problems. Bad stuff. Stupid stuff. Teenage angsty stuff. Oh well! Who cares? Everyone has enough problems already! Why complain about mine? One one these days I'll do something for myself but for now, I have others on my mind. ALRIGHT!

Enough of that.

So has anyone noticed the facebook tradition of making the little box under your profile picture say the date of when you officially became an item with your significant other? I have noticed... It's funny how people state that. What happens when you break up? You have to change it and you are reminded of when you first got together. Ouch. And there is a new sensation sweeping the nation! or whatever you want. Yeah so It's a silly little site made for people that like to answer annoying questions. You make one, post in on your facebook, and people anonymously ask you questions that you can then choose to answer or delete. They then all become your status', updated every time you answer a question. I'm really debating on whether to make one, just to see what people would ask me. I won't, but hey, it's fun to think about it. What if I get a super personal question? Or what if some random person confesses their love for me? i would never know who it was. I guess that's the best part of it... Meh, I won't get one though. I'm not really brave enough to, if that makes sense....?

Alright, I have nothing else to say. So toodle-ooo! Have a nice day!

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

What the Flagnon?

Hmmm I have a problem. This problem needs to be solved. But how do you solve a problem you don't want to solve? Well I don't know. That's why I'm asking. But the thing is, everyone's answers are so vague! And I know why. They shouldn't solve my problems for me. I need to solve them... Somehow.

Mmmmkay.... So I like skype. A lot. I enjoy it! Immensely. Ooooh well.

So I found this absolutely amazing poem. It makes me happy and sad at the same time... Here it is!

Something Childish but Very Natural
If I had but two little wings
And were a little feathery bird,
To you I'd fly, my dear!
But thoughts like these are idle things,
And I stay here.

But in my sleep to you I fly:
I'm always with you in my sleep:
The world is all one's own
But then one wakes, and where am I?
All, all alone.

Sleep stays not, though a monarch bids:
So I love to wake ere break of day:
For though my sleep be gone,
Yet while 'tis dark, one shuts one's lids,
And still dreams on.
- Samuel Taylor Coleridge

I don't know why I like that poem so much. I found it in English class, when we were supposed to be reading Rime of the Ancient Mariner. But I loved it. Ask K.E. She knows. She saw me and laughed. HA!

So shout out to my friend that I'm talking to right this second... Ginger, yo.

Mmmmkay... Nothing else to say... So yeah... Here is one of my favorite songs... Oooh how I Love the Kooks. They bring me to my "happy place." Peace out girl scouts!

Friday, February 26, 2010

The Definition of Me.

AHHHHHH!!!! Festival is tomorrow!! :O

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Moon Struck

I'm back from being AWOL again. I keep doing that! Dang it! But anyway, how's it going everyone? Good? I hope so! Here's the update on my life...

My best friend is officially not my best friend anymore. And the kid hasn't even really said it to me. Just to people I know. He "avoids" me. Oh well, whatever. I have a lot of other friends!

I got back from Seattle okay. It's quite lovely! I really really really want to go to the University of Washington. It's quite lovely. And I really fit in there! I mean Seattle is like the birthplace of alternative. Meaning it's full of Hipters/Scenesters/Emurs/HOTNESS! Man I love it there! Oh I really want to go there. Maybe I'll be a music teacher or a drama teacher... How fun!

I tried out for the solo in chorus today. Apparently I'm being "considered." How very exciting. Along with me, C.F. is being considered. I don't mind if she gets it, she has a pretty voice. But I do mind if C.E. gets it. I will be super P.O. I really don't like her. And she adds all of this pop-like flair to it that just doesn't sound good. Gosh darn it! Meh!!!!!

I'm back at school and do you know what that means?! HELL WEEK! Ahhh practices until 9:30 every night! Ahhh it's terrible! But I like it. If only I could get all of my homework done... And man, costuming is way harder then I thought it would be! It's always changing and you don't always have costumes for people when they are need. AHHH! We have so little time! We have two days and we still need some costumes! Ahh! Scary! Oh well.... It will be great. The costumes we do have are great! Oh by the way, those that go to X high school, come see the show! It's great! I swear it has gotten so emotional, I might cry during it! (I won't actually cause I don't cry, but you know.)

Okay I have nothing else to say at the moment so sleep tight everyone! Have a good night!! I love you all!!!

An artsy picture of me, taken by my sister. I look so indie!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Yo Yo Yo It's Lunchtime!

So I have not written in a while, dear readers (that aren't actually there). So I will update you I guess! By the way, I have been stalling on the whole writing thing... I just don't wanna! Hahaha!

So anyway, it's February break here in Massachusetts! Meaning while everyone everywhere else is having school, people in my town are vacationing in Hawaii, or in my case Seattle. So here I am, away from my friends in a city that is... Very wet and very gray. But I love it! Washington, as my sister told me, is the birthplace of alternative. I have never seen so many hipsters/scene kids in my life! (That's a total lie, there were more in Texas) But I have decided that I really love it here! Even with all of the hobo's that take drugs, man they make it even better! I really enjoy it here... Maybe I'll go to U Dub....

So yeah I found out that my best friend doesn't want to be friends with m,e because he "doesn't like me as a friend or a person and she is too socially awkward..." Gosh what a mean person...This is my best friend? Well I should have seen it coming. He is just one of those guys that drops people after a certain amount of time. My time has come. And I will bow out of it gracefully. I really want to yell at him or something. You see, I'm not mad at him for not liking me, I'm mad at him for trash talking me to my sister. What a meanie. Oh well. I think I will live. Ha!

I got asked to prom! How exciting! No one knows though. Shhh. (How very like me to tell a secret I don't want many people to know on the INTERNET. Ha I'm a cool kid)

Valentines day was... Uneventful. YAy!

I think my friend thinks we are going on a date... I don't really know though. Yikes!

Please please please please please let my wish come true!!

So yeah, I can't think of anything else, so goodbye for now! I'll write again later! I promise...! Peace!

My Children My Bride- On the Wings of Integrity

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Roses Are Red, Violets are Blue, F**k You W***e.

Ha, I love 500 Days of Summer. It's hilarious! You should all watch it! I found out that on Saturday by mom and sister went to blockbuster while my other sister and I were at that sleepover, and got a million movies! It was redonkulous! That doesn't mean anything, I know but it does now, because I made it up! But yeah, movies, they are great

So yeah about that sleepover thing, It was great! I loved Blue Man Group! They were amazing, yet again! I loved them... And yeah the sleepover was really fun... But awkward... For example: I went to sleep, now this was a co-ed sleepover and they said boys and girls could sleep in the same room but there had to be a chaperon. But anyway so I fell asleep around four A.M. which was mucho fun, but anyway, I fall asleep and the next morning i turn over, AND THERE IS A BOY RIGHT NEXT TO ME! I was o surprised I screamed. Woke him up. But yeah, he was RIGHT there... Really really close... It was awkward!!! I was rather surprised.

AHHHH I know what B.H.'s secret is but he won't tell me and I can't tell him I know his secret because he has only told two people! Gah!!! It's horrid... BLegh!

Okay so.... I can't sleep. I'm an insomniac, I swear! The only times I really sleep is when I take sleeping pills, and it;s not a very good sleep... It Sucks actually... But oh well.. I think I'll live. Ooh last night I felt so stupid... I went to bed rather early for the past week but woke up two hours later. I was really thirsty. So I started drinking from the huge glass of water next to my bed. Sadly... I dropped the cup on half of my bed and it went rolling on the floor... I felt so stupid! I got water EVERYWHERE! all over my clothes and bed and floor.... But I was so tired so I just grabbed a towel, layed on my bed, changed my P.J.'s and went to sleep around the water. It was awkward and uncomfortable... I didn't like it... And now I am just as exhausted as I have been all week. BLEGH!

Okay I should go now.... Do you know what I'm craving? Raisin Bran and a tuna sandwich... It's weird. Not together, just in general. So I think I will eat that now... Interesting? I think so... So peace out!!!

The Bay State- Glamor Kills

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Sweet Caroline. Bum Bum Bummm

So first off, I was supposed to mention my friends in my blog, so Erica, Nike, Cailin, Katelyn, Tara, and... I can't remember who else so leave me a comment and I will mention you guys... Yeah you guys are awesome!!! Just lovely! Woot woot! I mentioned you.... Later maybe I'll actually have something to say about you guys... Bahahah!

So yeah, I went to the middle school play... It was... Good. I mean for middle school, yeah it was good, but there were only a couple of good singers. And it was long. It was funny though. I had fun. Especially since I was sitting in between J.C. and L.B. who like to bicker all the time. It was hilarious....! I love it when people jokingly fight like that. It's exciting.

I'm going to Blue Man Group today! Of course I have to miss competition that the T.C. are singing in... I hope they do okay.... I have decided I might have the making of a crush on someone who is in it... I'm not really sure... Ha Oh well! I Hope they do amazing! Which of course they will so it doesn't matter. Because they always do amazing. So go T.C.s and guy I think is hot in T.C. YAY!

I started reading My Life is Average and I'm embarrassed to say that I enjoy reading it. My favorite one.

"Today, I was in a restaurant wearing my Harry Potter shirt and there were some popular girls from my school there.They laughed at my outfit, but I ignored them. The lights went out so I stood up and yelled, "LUMOS" and the lights came back on. Guess who got four numbers and the jealousy of popular girls?"

It is so hilarious! I love Harry Potter so much... Oh my so I am so ready for the youth group sleep over tonight... Yusss!!! It will be fun I hope! Well I should go.... Bye!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Fizzzz ED

Okay, so I am over my funk. Kind of. Though today I was really hyper. I might be able to post a video that someone took of me when I wasn't looking. It was embarrassing. They spent the rest of class watching it.... And laughing. Hmmm it was pretty bad. Oh well.

So yes, blogging is mighty fun I guess. I don't even know. Gah! I have nothing to say... This is really boring. I'm sorry I haven't really thought out this post. I should have thought it out more...

AHHHHH I FORGOT TO DO A FIFTIETH POST! Well I did, but I was gonna announce it. Okay well I have gotten to fifty one posts! That's so great! I'm happy! Hopefully I'll keep going with it. I hope at least. So yeah... That's all I have to say... Wow one of these days I'll have something to say... Oh one more thing. Today I'm going to the middle school musical. It's The Wiz. SO I hope it's wonderful!!!

This is the Wiz. I don't know how the middle school is going to put it on... Hmmm

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Your Talking Privileges Are Revoked

So.... I am so stressed out! Way too much to do. I really don't enjoy school right now. I don't know what it is about this week that is so... Blegh! But there is something... And it's rather annoying... So I had this math project of which my partners did not do right, so I had to redo it. And then there is my English essay I have been working on. AND I have to write my play. Ugh if there was every a time to say "FML" it's now. Of course I won't. I must say that school isn't the only thing stressing me. There are other things too. Parents, social life, everything. I haven't been sleeping either. I have been staying up doing nothing... Blegh!!!!! Oh my nothing to say... Bye now!!!

Hellogoodbye- Oh It's Love

Monday, February 1, 2010

Late Night Calls

Last night, for the first time in a while, I called a friend when I couldn't sleep. He was fine with it, though I feel bad because I woke him up then kept him up really late, but it was fun... It reminded me of old times. I used to call J.D. all the time... Or K.F. or G.D. or... Other people. But this time is was B.H. I don't know what to do about him... Why why why?! That doesn't make sense, I know, but it does to me... Kind of. Man am I tired! Everything I have been saying to my friends just doesn't make sense. Today in Physics, M.S. and I were just cracking up the whole time. You know when you are so tired, everything just seems funny? Yeah that's what was happening. Other people in the class thought we were high or something.

SO I talked to A.A. for the first time... I just wanted to see how P.A. was doing... Apparently no so well... That's nerve wracking. I'm scared out of my mind with worry...

SO I found out that our second meeting for that play writing thing is next week and I have nothing! Ugh!! This sucks man! I mean I have two ideas, I just have to start them... You know? It's like writing a book... You have to start and finish... That's the hardest part... Then when it's over, everything else comes naturally. So I just have to get it over with I guess. Maybe in my next free. I like frees.... It's when I do all of my homework. Ha!

AHHH!!!! I might get asked to prom!!! I hope he does ask!!! AHHHH!!!! I'm so excited.... My friend M.R. has made it her mission to get me to prom... And I really hope I do get to go... AHHH! Cross your fingers for me! And bug T.N. about it will you? Ha!

SO..... I'm going to start a band by the way! I'm excited... It should be fun... I just need to find people for the band I guess. I'm excited. It should be really really fun! I might start it with this girl I just met... Who knows.

It's time to go man! So bye bye!!

Basshunter- All I Ever Wanted... The guy at my school that sings this sings it SO WELL!!! I love it! I don't really like the video...

Sunday, January 31, 2010


AHHHHHH Choir concert is on Wednesday! I'm so happy for the Mozart to be over with!! Then we get to sing fun stuff like, Everything by Michael Buble, and a medley of Mamma Mia songs (Aka ABBA) and all of that good stuff. Of course once we start to sing it, it will be ruined... But oh well, they should be fun to sing I guess....

I like a boy who has a disease... I do and that won't change... For now... I hope he is okay.

Okay well I have nothing else to talk about. Goodbye!

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Hello Darkness My Old Friend

So Last nigh at the concert, the funniest thing happened! Well to me it was funny. So the boys A Capella group from my school sang All The Above. It's a good song, I'll post a video of it, but any was this is N.N sings the solo. Well when he was up there rapping his little heart out, the girls from a different school who sat behind me were gabbing about him THE WHOLE TIME!! They were saying things like, "Oh he is SO good!" And "Wow he is so cute, and he can sing! I think I have fallen!" And my ultimate favorite "Man anyone who actually knows him is SOOOO lucky!" Ha when they said that, I laughed for a while... Everyone thought I was going crazy... Well girls, I know him. Ha I guess I am SOOOO lucky! Ha I don't know why I thought that was so funny, but I did... So yeah... That's my story.

Maino Ft. T-Pain. All the Above.

So anyway, last night was fun. It always seems like the college group has all of the cutest guys in it. Buuuut I am a lowly sophomore in high school. Ha which is weird. So yes, Voice Male was there last night, and some people were rather beautiful. And after the show, my friend I.D. (hahah I never noticed that's what her initials were) went to converse with them. They were really nice. I guess I have a southern Twang or something cause one of them asked me If I was from the south and I told him I was from Texas. He told me he loved my "accent." Of course while he said that I was thinking... I have an accent? Since when? Oh well they were cool guys. Friendly. Ha I.D. was having a field day! She was the one who wanted to talk to them the most. She is older so I guess it's not as weird? But yeah, it was funny! Man I was so tired that night, I said some really stupid things... It was fun!

Joben, I guess isn't doing to well. SO I guess I will have to be there for him as a friend I'm not changing my mind. It would be worse If I said yes because I felt bad for him not because I actually liked him. So yeah.... Not giving in... I'm glad I have friends...

Okay well I have nothing else to report. I might hang with J.L. or B.H. Either one would be fun. I am just so bored!! It's terrible! Hmmm SO peace out everyone! I should be watching the movie I put on to watch with my sister instead of sitting on the computer... HA!

WE happen to be watching Mamma Mia. It's fun. Here is I Have a Dream.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Come To Kenya- We've Got Lions.

SO yeah I was in a bad mood yesterday, but my friends made me feel a whole lot better! They sent me a link to here... If you want a good laugh please go here!!! It;'s so cute and hilarious! Ha and just so you don't do the same thing as me, yes it repeats itself.... it never ends. I sat watching it for about twenty minutes before I figured that out... I'm listening to it now and it's starting to get annoying actually.. Okay that is off....

Now I'm listening to 30 Seconds to Mars. I like them a lot! Here is there song Closer to the Edge... It reminds me of some friends...

It's good right? Well maybe if you like that kind of music... It's good... I like it.

So I have another solo today. I'm excited I guess. I have sung the song so many times though. Which is fine but... Meh.... Man I really don't have anything to say... This is pretty blegh you know? Oh well. I have to go, so here is a video I'm watching right now. I'll post later...

This The Sound of Settling by Death Cab for Cutie

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Welcome to Loserville.

NOT a good day today. I don't even know why... I thought it was... Until just a little while ago. It's amazing how one little phone call can ruin your day... It really can you know? Why do people have to keep asking questions? Why do they have to proceed to question what I have already answered? I don't know. But they do. And Now I just feel terrible. So, so terrible. TO the point that I don't really know anything anymore. Hmmmph. This is terrible. So I listened to this to make me feel better...

This the Hall & Oates song You Make My Dreams Come True, but it's also in a scene from 500 Days of summer, Which is what this video is of. If you haven't seen it you really should. It's a great movie.

So weird thing happened today. A and have decided that it is their life goal to get L to ask me to prom. So that's what they are trying to do. A weird thing eh? Apparently L asked N to the prom but she has a boyfriend, so she has to say no. They would only be going as friends though (L and N I mean). Now I am aware that all of this i meaningless and stupid to you, and probably doesn't make any sense, but whatever. I just wanted to get that out there. So hey, maybe soon I will have a date to the prom. I already have a dress anyway. This is what it looks like...

Sorry that it is a really bad picture... I my phone takes horrible pictures.. But this will have to do I, guess! I love it... We bought it at this little store that I'm sorry but I can't remember the name of. It went out of business two weeks after we got it , so lucky us. When we got it, it was mighty big on me. Luckily they tailored it for us! It was on sale, only 100 dollars and with the tailoring it came out to about 150. Which isn't that bad. Its obviously red... It is satin, off the shoulder sleeves, gold and green beading on it... I love it! I wore it to the Military Ball for my old schools JROTC. It was totally lovely! I had a lot of fun. So I really want to wear it at least one more time before I grow out of it... I hope I haven't already... And yes, that is my messy room in the background... Everyone always comments of the Audrey Hepburn poster behind me. So comment away if you wish!

Alright... So unwanted attention, no one wants it... But how do you get rid of it? Please tell me? How do you get rid of that attention that really isn't needed. Blegh to attention... Blegh!

Alright I should go... I have to get a lot of homework done and I haven't done much of it. Peace out!

Burberry handbag add. The models are always so beautiful. Like Emma Watson... She is gorgeous. And the guys are always so HOT!!! I love it. Okay Bye!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


It's the night of our lives.... Who's that girl? She looks so fine.... Who's that guy? I don't recognize. Yeah I know I'm all cool quoting this movie.. I won't say what it is though. So anyway... Today was very interesting. I do have to say, today was the first time I ever found out that someone "loved" me. Like a guy loved me... I don't know If I like the feeling... Especially if it is unrequited.... I guess I kind of am doing the same thing to him that the guy I like is doing to me... He wrote a song for me... Isn't that crazy? It was totally amazing... Well written, pretty... I feel so bad now. It's probably the most romantic thing anyone has done for me and I shot the poor kid down... I know I should I have, I don't like him like that.. He is like my best friend... Well I like him enough but more as a friend... But that's not the point. I feel so bad... Should I have said yes? Should I have told him I liked him too? No that wouldn't be fair to him. Anyway, people say "Do what your heart tells you!" No matter how corny it is, it's true. I would just feel even more terrible if I said yes to him. Including he wanted to know if I loved him! Not like but LOVE. That's a big word to throw out at me! You know my opinion on love! Oh well I guess... It was a great song though... Light and happy then slow and melancholy. I liked it a lot.

So, I would like to point out something. People automatically assume that if I say I think I guy is cute, That I like him! That is a lie. I think he is cute... CUTE! I don't automatically like that. Actually now That I think about it... I only like two guys. One everyone knows, R. The other... Well only my sister knows. P... Lovely P. I like him a lot more then I thought I did. And I am worried about him. More then I let on. I hope he is okay. So yeah, that's my spiel on the guys I like. Two guys: R and P. Mmmkay? No one else... At the moment. Ha!

Today is a big choir rehearsal at a college. It's so stupid! I don't need to practice the same song for three hours! Gosh! But I guess I will live. For some reason I feel like singing so I guess this will be good. I need to sing my little heart out... I don't know, when I'm in the mood that I am in, I usually need to sing... We will see how it goes.

So two more things before I have to go. 1) S is coming soon! I am so excited!!! I can't wait to see her! She is the coolest ever! So Good luck on your journey here! And 2) I am writing two plays. At the moment they are only ten minute one act plays but he, maybe they will be so good, I'll expand on them... WE will see. Okay well bye lovelies!!! PEace out.

I like this song. Love Song by Tesla.

Monday, January 25, 2010

The Magical Mystery Tour

SO I must say, I have been insanely happy lately... Well today at least. I have new friends, which is never bad AND I am content. So I decided to give you some A Capella videos because they make me so very happy. I know I'm a nerd but... Who cares? So here is the first one...

This group is called the Sonos. Here they are singing my favorite song by The Fleet Foxes, White Winter hymnal. The soloist almost looks like she is about to cry... I find it spectacular. I heard them on NPR on Sunday. I wish I was able to hear the whole interview/thing because church was about to start so I had to leave... But they really are amazing! Actually here is one more video by them... It's really good so I can't resist...

This is I Want You Back by the Sonos. Aren't they good? Gosh I wish Team AC sounded like this! It's fabulous! Though these are all grown people who have music majors and shizz like that. So yeah it makes sense why they are so very good...

I love when choirs like this put their own spin to songs... like in the White Winter Hymnal they made it sound like a gospel song, which makes it just as beautiful. When you sing a song A Capella you are putting your own style to it, your own personality in a way. Hmmm Maybe I'm just a music freak... Ha I loose myself in it...

Anyway here here another A Capella group. They are called Canvas. Here they are singing The Simpson Theme Song.

Okay now for more important things... Yeah I have nothing... Though I must say that last night I could not sleep... It was terrible. SO I ended up staying up until three. Shhhh! It's my secret. That means you too N.H.! Don't say a word.. Ha ha ha!

So yeah I have nothing else to say... Maybe I'll go talk to My Big Squiznat... I don't know though. I'm at that place where I feel that I can't text first because it would seem like I'm texting him all the time. So I usually end up not texting and hoping that the kid will text me first. I am so weird! Okay well I'm gonna go now... So talk to you later you guys!!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

White Winter Hymnal

Ummmm okay I just wanted to tell you that Fleet Foxes are AMAZING!!! I love them so much! If you have never heard of them... Well I am leaving a video so, have fun! I just recently learned how to post videos so yeah... I know it's sad but true. But yeah I'm gonna put up my favorite song so be prepared for fantasticism. That's not a word but it is now because Fleet Foxes is the definition of fantasticism. If it could be anything, it's Fleet foxes. Who would have known that a group of scruffy, bearded, indie, men could bring such joy? Well Iron and Wine could so I guess it makes sense... Well here it is. Listen and enjoy!

But anyway, Have you ever been typing and accidentally thought to type one word but totally typed a different one? Like before I wanted to type such, but I typed what. Which is did not make any sense. So of course I had to go back and retype it. And if you know how lazy I am, then you would know that this is not something I want to do. Its different if you just have a typo. You right click and look! There is the actual spelling! SO... Yeah I don't even know why I am bringing this up. I'm just a weird kid I guess.... Cause yeah... Well next subject? Yeah I think so too.

So recently I was looking up videos of Fleet Foxes (yes I am a devoted fan and loser), and I found this really really good indie band. They are called First Aid Kit. The band is made up of two sisters, Klara and Johanna Söderberg, from Switzerland. They are really really good actually! Fun stuff man! So here is another video... Of them.. Singing their little hearts out... First Aid Kit.

Aren't they good?! So so so so so so good! Well if you like this type of music...Bahahah! I like them a lot. I have been listening to them for a while... My sister is probably very upset with the loud music... Oh well!

SO yeah for all of you wondering... The party was lovely! I did eventually figure out where G's house was... Just took some prying. And it was lovely! Of course R was there... It was quite blegh you know? Everyone thinks that I don't like him anymore... So keep my secret okay? Yes I like R but who cares... WE are friends which is great! But yeah there was a lot of dancing and talking and singing and jamming and all of that jazz. My sister made G and B these frogs made out of a twenty dollar bill that hop. They loved them! Hahaha I swear for 18 year olds they are just like little kids, which is good...

Okay well I don't really have anything else to talk about so.... Bye bye my loves! Live well! Have a great Sunday!

P.S.- I'm so excited! For this big A Capella showcase they chose my songs for one of the two songs! Yay! It's very exciting for me, I must say...!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

This is My Obsession

All I want is everything you're not. Hmmm This song is now stuck in my head. I was reading a blog of a friend, and this song was on it... I'm a bit embarrassed though. It is a Demi Lavato song... But it's good. It makes me think I guess. I actually secretly like all of those Disney singers... I mean I used to love Miley Cirus, not anymore though. I secretly like the Jonas Brothers, and wish that Nick would sweep me away. Demi Lavato and Selena Gomez? Love 'em! But that's not the point. Actually I don't even really know what the point is in general.

I don't understand why people fall in love with celebrities. It's a rather silly concept. I mean basically girls see a movie, see that one actor... Next thing you know they see every single movie they are in and have posters of them and are a screaming fan, hopelessly in love with them. I think actors do it on purpose, they act all cute and adorable in interviews and they are always so... UGH. People are so weird. Ha!

So I have been on all morning. Now if you have never been it's this music generating site. You create a "station" like right now I'm listening to a July Garden station. Then it generates a bunch of music that is similar to Judy's music, like Frank and Louis and Ella and Dean. It's rather lovely. Though I have come to find that all the songs are about love. I mean you would be expecting that, but I don't know... I don't usually listen to the words, just the beautiful voices and stuff. But now... I'm listening and it's wondrous. So please, go to and make a station. It's fun and you will probably find a bunch of bands you never heard of before.

I am in such a weird mood man! It sucks! Gah! I really don't like being in a weird mood like this, It's so bad. I hate it. I feel angry and sad and annoyed at myself ALL AT THE SAME TIME! It's weird. HA save me from this weird mood please!

Oh so yeah I'm invited to my friends G.N. and B.H.'s 18th birthday party. It's tonight actually. They sent out this email. It said
Hey guys!! You are all invited to mine and G's 18th birthday party! Basically you guys should show up to G's house at 7:00. A rave will ensue We will have food and stuff as well. You can stay till around 11 or so. It's gonna be a blast!! -B & G
See that would be perfectly fine, but if you will notice, there is no address. How am I supposed to get there if I don't even know where G lives? Ha! When I read it, I laughed for a while after I read it. Then my mom read it an she laughed for a while too. What a silly thing to leave out... Oh well! I'll figure it out eventually. I'll text them or something when I'm less lazy.

Okay well that's all I have to say. I guess I'll write again soon! Have fun today, hope it's great!

His Majesties, Prince William and Prince Harry are quite good looking, eh?

Monday, January 18, 2010

Thinking Of Him....

I don't if you know this but my last two posts have been named after songs or lyrics from the musical my school is putting on. I guess I am just in the mood for Curtains. Well guys, I got in, but only in the ensemble. I am so excited for it! It's rather lovely I must say! Though I feel bad, but I am a bit disappointed with my part. I thought I had done really well at auditions but I guess I wasn't what they were looking for in a named part. Oh well I will be a great ensemble-er. So it will be great.

You know what's really annoying? When your mom is friends with you on facebook! Every time I have a status that says, "Wow I had a terrible day!'" or "I just found out something terrible!" She comes into my room and asks me all about it. It's rather annoying in my opinion. I mean I don't mind my friends asking, most of the time they already know, but my mom thinks I'm a depressed child, cutting herself all the time or something. Which I don't do. I have very strong feelings against cutting. But yeah, It's UBER annoying. Yes I used "uber." I am very upset with myself. GAH!

Hmmmm so there is this random kid on facebook who only talks to me to tell me about him and his girl friend. Actually here is a real conversation with him...
J.F.- Hey!
Me- Hiya...
J.F.- I got to second base with my girlfriend today.
Me- Like legit, or just kidding?
J.F.- No I'm serious
Full Bare hand to full bare tit.
Me- Oh ummmm cool?
J.F.- Yeah!
J.F. logs off.

Yeah so I don't understand why this kid start conversations with me just to tell me about his escapades with his girlfriend then to leave. What is the point of it? And It's not like his computer stops. He legitimately just stops talking to me. He only starts conversations to tell me about his girlfriend. It is so weird! I don't enjoy it that much. I don't know the girl but I bet she wouldn't appreciate him telling some random girl "Full hand on full bare tit." I know that if it were me, I would be mighty angry. Mighty, Mighty angry!

Yes so the best movie in the world is Bolt! Everyone should watch it! I am ordering you to! You will love it if you haven't seen it. And if you have seen it, well it's amazing right?

Okay this long weekend has been have good and half bad... The bad: I have come to find that my friends don't actually like me... It sucks! But I am used to it. I have a few great friends so that's what counts. I love all of my friends that are in Team AC and my theater friends and some other people. I really am happy. It doesn't matter that the group that I hang out with every weekend doesn't actually like me, I can live with weekends with my sisters and some other people! So there! Now the good: I had the most fun yesterday! With a group of my actual friends, I went to play laser tag and then we all saw Avatar! It was lovely!! I had loads of fun!!!

Okay to close this, I sadly have another crush. It will probably go away soon... But you know... IT kind of sucks. I won't say much about this one... No one knows about how I like him. And I'm going to keep it that way. Now I will say I have no chance, but there is an actual reason! I'm not being annoying, all "oh I'm so ugly, I have no chance!" I really don't have a chance because of... Reasons. That is all I'm going to say. SO I guess I will take my leave now! Bye darlings!

Alexa Chung Is rather beautiful... And amazing. I used to watch her show, It's On With Alexa Chung, but sadly it has been canceled. It's rather depressing. Well goodbye lovelies!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I Miss The Music I Made With Her

Ha I am not actually in love... It's just fun to say. Ha! But a lot of people have been falling in love lately! It's pretty cool I guess... Fun to watch them fall for each other.

Okay so call backs and dance auditions were SO MUCH FUN! They were fabulous! Fist off we started dancing! I have never been a part of a more fun Ho-Down in my life! It's the funniest dance in the world. I swear I should make a video of it and post it. It's hilarious! Then call backs were fantastic! Now since this is online and no one call make me feel bad I'm going to toot my own horn for a while. I did so well on the song! It's not quite in my range but I did quite wonderful! Strong and lovely! And I swear I might get a lead! Because near the end they did partner scenes for leads and they chose me to do one! Oh how exciting! But even if I don't get a lead I'll just be happy to be in it! t of course I have to wait until freaking nine until the list goes up! Gah! Oh well....

Man I am too excited to type... So I'll write later! And tell you my part! Here are some PRETTY guys for you to look at. At the top and the bottom!

AHHHHH I know them!!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Baby, It's Cold Outside.

What a good movie... When you are in the mood.
Hmmm so about that dance...
It was pretty good except for one little screw up. So there was this really really cute guy there! And may I just say that I like more pretty guys... The ones with longer hair that are what some people call "feminine." Yeah I totally disagree with that entirely! But anyway, so there was that hot guy. Sadly he was pretty high... High as a kite really. Though I thought he liked me maybe cause he kept on looking at me. But I am not into that stuff so I didn't say hi to him or anything. Anyway, a couple days after my friend told me he had a facebook. She also said he was so high he wouldn't remember me. So me being the girl I am, I added him. Well he remembered me. Later that night I got a comment from him on facebook saying, "yeaaa howd you find me on fb" Yeah well it was quite embarrassing. But me being the awesome girl I am, I replied with "Ummm I guess my super cool X kid powers?" Ha! I'm the coolest. And a total creeper!

So anyway, how has everyone been? I haven't posted in a while... Sorry about that. I have just been very busy. I tried out for my schools musical! Cross your fingers for me! I'm excited to see if I get a call back. Because at my school, everyone gets in, but only people who might get leads. I'm fine with either, but it would be cool to get a lead!

Hmmm I have nothing else to report on. Everything else is TOO personal. So I'll keep it to myself. Yuss... Alright I have nothing else to add. I'll write again later! Bye.

Friday, January 8, 2010


Both of them are so beautiful.
Yeah so I have come to find that this whole not swearing thing is a lot harder then I thought! I mean I didn't swear that much but it got to be just force of habit so now whenever someone says a certain thing I have the sudden urge to swear... But I won't!

So tonight I'm going to a dance... Exciting right? Nope! It just so happens I am going as a favor for my friends that are going on a date but don't want to go alone. So I have to go to this dance that isn't at my school nor will I know anyone there AND I'm going to be third wheel. This sucks royally. I wouldn't mind so much if it was at my school, at least I'd know people that way! What's even worse is they are gonna try to set me up with guys also, which I don't mind but so awkward!! So I guess I'll just have to live through the night... I promised my friend not to die and not o get raped. Hahahah! Chastity belt here I come!

Oh and on another note I am singing the National Anthem for the boys varsity game. Earlier this week I sang at the girls one, not so bad, but at the boys one! I'm so nervous! I know I can do it but I am so terrified! Singing in front of crowds is so much fun but I get so nervous! So very nervous!

Alright that's what I'm doing tonight... So I'll tell you about it later!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Oh My Jonas.

So pretty!

I find it impressive that a Disney boy band can get so much attention that people are making phrases about them! "Oh my Jonas!" "What the Jonas?!" It's amazing how three young boys can get such a fan base. I swear one day I'll have a fan base like that! What can I say I want to be a SUPERSTAR! Ha but not really. Being famous seems to daunting and difficult. There is a girl at my school that is in a all girl children's band called Girl Authority. She is one of those typical teenagers that wants to be famous. She and her "band" go on tour all the time and she is always talking about how much she LOVES the stage. Her profile picture is even a picture of her at a mic, singing her heart out. Now I don;t mean to insult her because she isn't a good singer, because that is a lie. She is a good singer. And I applaud her for being in Girl Authority even if everyone at school ridicules her (because sadly, they suck). The only reason I "rag" on her is because she wants fame for all the wrong reasons! She doesn't want to change peoples lives with her music, she doesn't really appreciate music either. She just wants to be famous. I don't think that that is the best reason to be famous...

On a happier note I'm proud to say that a whole bunch of my friends are advancing musically!!! Like my friends are in this band and they have a big big big show coming up!!! Which is super exciting! And another going on tour! How exciting for all of them!!! I must say though, I am really jealous. I am a singer, but most definitely not talented enough to go on tour or anything... There is also the problem of no band, heh heh heh. I really want to start a band. I remember going to my friends shows (everyone check out I Invented Chivalry!) and I would wish that I could be up on a stage jamming out with a bunch of my friends! Hmmm There isn't much I can do about my lack of band. Well if any of your friends are interested, tell them I'm begging them to join!

Alright, I am so bored! There is nothing to do in my little town of X. Yes I am calling it X. It doesn't even start with an "x" but in algebra an unknown variable is "x" so that is what I'm calling my town. It is an unknown variable in my mind and the mind of others. So Yes, there is nothing to do in X! There is a Dairy Hoy (not it's real name), a grocery, and a couple of other stores. Oh and a Bruegers. That's it! And also the town in population is small, but everything is so spread out that everyone lives really far away from each other. Hmmmm apparently the creators of X liked to have their space! Lots and lots of space!

My last point of the day is about someone who is mean. He has no name. Anyway, said boy is a photographer, cool right? No. See this boy asked me to model for him. I must say it's very flattering when someone asks you to model for them, no matter how good of a photographer... Well anyway I get my new haircut and next thing I know, I'm ugly, not his "ideal" girl for the shot. It's so lame! I cut my hair short, not "scene" anymore and I am ugly? JerkFace! But I love my hair and that's what counts.... Yeah I just wanted to get that off my chest... JERK JERK JERK!!!! Alright I'm done.

So anyway, I'm gonna go now! I hope you loved my spiel... This is most definitely an online journal but who cares! I like talking about random stuff! So yeah here are your pictures!

She is/was my idol... This is one of her many looks...
Lana Rae